a bit of tomfoolery

i realize that.

i don’t know why the eff i’m like this. i act like i’m some know-it-all, when  i know i know nothing. i act like i’m superior to other people, but i know i’m not. and what’s funny is, i hate other people for acting the same way i’m acting. I don’t even have much going on for me to warrant such an attitude. I don’t even believe i’m better than anyone, yet i act like it and i don’t know why. maybe it’s a defense mechanism. maybe i’m over compensating for my insecurities. maybe i’m putting up a facade so people don’t notice i’m actually not that great of  person (which is stupid because by being a stuck-up bitch, i’m just adding to my not so great personality). maybe all of that (and i just realized all of those maybes were saying pretty much the exact same thing). and I treat others horribly as a result. I say the wrong things all the time. i’m an insensitive bitch. I’m so reckless. i just blurt out some of the meanest shizz, and that’s effing messed up. I’m not better than anyone, so  i need to stop pretending i am. there’s no excuse.

like what the heck is wrong with me. what makes me feel like i have the right to be that way. what the heck makes me say shizz so recklessly. ugh, i’m a mess.

it’s time i change. i need to effing eat a large slice of humble pie, or the whole effing pie.