a bit of tomfoolery

isn’t it odd how the mind goes into hyperdrive in the early morning hours? whenever i’m on break from school, i have a hard time going to bed. it’s 4:41 in the morning and i’m wide awake, and probably will stay wide awake for a couple more hours. during this time i normally think about things i’d much rather not think about, so tonight i chose to distract myself by scrolling through my tumblr blog to the very beginning - to the very first post.

it’s quite a trip. it’s like a chronicle of yourself, in a way. you can read what you once felt, what you once experienced, what you once thought, what you once were.

i got to see how i’ve matured since i began using tumblr. for one, my grammar has gotten much better. i’m no longer confusing “you’re” for “your” as often and I was pleased to find that i don’t complain about school nearly as much as i used to. i also saw a bunch of hipster-ish photos and went back to the beginning of my k-pop craze. I got to reminisce on memories i made with old friends, then sadly witness the falling out of one and the drifting away of another. but more seriously, i got to see the more substantial personal changes i’ve undergone. for one, i saw the changes from my thinly veiled self-deprecating and insecure self to the more confident, self-assured person that i am now. and i don’t make myself out to be some tragic outcast that society doesn’t seem to understand like i once did either.

i also realized how much i haven’t changed… that’s by far the scariest part…